“The language of our emotion is the language of equus.” ~ Kathy Pike
I have no doubt that horses were powerful angels standing by me as a child. For most of my life, horses have been there to gently, heartfully, amazingly love me through it all.
Yet I only recently came to appreciate the full power of equus, thanks to my time spent with Kathy Pike.*
Energy all Around
Horses are energetic beings, free of judgement and emotional programming. They rely on pure instinctual wisdom, responding to their world based on the energy they sense all around them.
Humans mostly live in our heads. We’re trained that way. As babies, we’re in our bodies and emotions, but it doesn’t take long for society to program us with shoulds and musts and fears. This creates an incongruence between our energetic truth and our emotional vibration.
Trauma creates even more incongruence - and we all have trauma of one form or another. The energetic incongruities we create over our lifetime are held in our physical bodies, not just in our conscious and subconscious mind. Until we release those physical, energetic impressions - we will remain in imbalanced vibrations with all our negative programming. This is what many call our false self.
Horses live on an acoustical, energetic level, sensing vibrational waves and responding in authenticity based on their instincts. When they are with humans, horses sense the energetic frequencies - what we we call emotions - through our physical bodies. They respond to our frequencies/emotions based on our congruence, or lack of, with our true self.
- If we’re feeling an emotion based on our scary voices, horses will shy away from us. You would too. They feel our incongruence as contracted energy - nasty stuff. They’ll send messages to us lighting up the incongruence, but they won’t dance with us. Until we begin to shift back into congruence.
- When we’re feeling an emotion in an authentic way, when we’re congruent with our truth, horses share wisdom, offer support and send us powerful knowing. In our congruence, we’re much more open and able to accept their wisdom.
And so goes our dance with Equus.
Flying with Moon
Coaching with horses is all about dropping deeply into our bodies, living in the energetic sensations that are stored there. We learn to settle into and fully feel the energy in our bodies - the energy of pure emotion. In this manner, horses teach us to flow and reside in our authentic selves, stepping beyond the false programming that is part and parcel of our society.
When we went out to meet the herd, Moon spoke to me immediately, welcoming me to the ranch. My horses have always spoken to me so I wasn’t as much surprised by his message as I was attracted to the energy behind it - total Zen Master.
When my time came to spend time with Moon as part of a round pen session - I knew something special was about to happen. I simply had no idea how special.
Since I’d arrived at the class two days earlier, my gut had been screaming at me. Nausea, twisting pain and just plain ugly energy was firing all the time. No matter what technique I used to clear this energy in the evening - it came right back the next morning as I was driving to the class, feeling even stronger throughout the days.
As I began my session with Moon, my gut was firing on full blast. Kathy guided me through the Mind Body Method*, opening myself to the feelings in my body and the emotions they were expressing. I felt my way into my body and could feel the fear and anxiety throbbing in my gut. Can I really step onto my path with purpose, shift into helping others with trauma, especially kids? Am I healed enough to do this work or am I kidding myself? My heartfelt desire was for Moon to give me a sense of the true answer to that question.
Moon stood on the far side of the round pen, gazing at the Colorado mountains in the distance. I moved slowly to stand next to him. I could feel his energy all around me, loving, kind, stable. Yep, Zen Master.
Moon cocked his eye to look at me, then studiously moved to the other side of me. I reached out to touch his wither and he moved away - just a bit to let me know not to do that. And so we stood, side by side in companionable space. Then the voice spoke softly, “You can stand on your own.” A wave of energy washed over me. I felt my whole body vibrate in resonance with this truth. I can shift my life. I am meant to do this work. It is my purpose on this planet. I still know that truth today.
I remained with Moon for a bit, enjoying that peaceful place of knowing. I could, and did, stand on my own. For the first time in my life while standing with a horse, I didn’t have the irresistible urge to stroke Moon, to take his energetic flow as my own. I stood in my own clear energy.
Back on Earth
The feeling in my gut was gone in the round pen. But not long after I left the pen to rejoin the group and debrief, I felt it begin to rise again. Kathy suggested I simply stay with the feeling, not try to decipher it. The key was to feel the pain in my body, feel the emotion that pain is expressing and listen for its message.
I did just that for the rest of the day - even as my gut just plain hurt. I admit it - I was bummed. In my false self I saw that pain as my own failure to step into the beautiful space of self-confidence Moon had offered me.
I was driving along later that night still attempting to release my gut pain. Nothing worked. So, I decided to go back into feeling it, sitting with it, listening to it.
After I settled into my body, allowing the burn and churn, Moon’s voice spoke again, softly yet firmly. “You can stand on your own!” I followed that voice, felt into my body and then - the knowing came. A knowing as clear as any message I’ve ever received, ever.
The pain in my gut wasn’t my energy. It was the fear and anxiety of every other person in the class, every person I’d been in contact with for who knows how long.
Moon helped me feel my way back to a truth I’ve known since I was a little child, a truth long forgotten.
I am an intuitive empath, a high sensitive walking in a world of energy. For all my life my healers and coaches have told me this, but I never felt it. I honestly thought they were just trying to boost me up. I simply could not see or feel it.
In my authentic self, standing next to Moon, I found my biggest truth ever.
I am an empath. WOW. And DUH.
My Gift from Moon
Moon gave me one of the biggest gifts ever in my spiritual journey. He explained my past, my present and my future in one simple statement. You can stand on your own.
Yes, I can stand on my own and move forward into my path with purpose. I’m ready to create the life of my dreams; a foundation dedicated to healing trauma in kids, veterans and people in general. The rest of my life will focus on sharing the gifts of my own healing with all of those who so need and deserve their truth.
But more importantly, I now understand that I can, and must, stand on my own energetically. The beliefs that drove me to take care of others, to tap into and take on their pain and anguish - that’s all false programming. There will be no more constant sickness and exhaustion. In my own energy, I will stand in peace - and I will coach others to find their own place of truth.
I am blessed, beyond words.
Later this week I’ll share about my even more amazing dance (can you believe it?) with Sylvie… a 3/4 Clydesdale mare with the eyes of love.
* Kathy Pike is the Founder of the Mind Body Method (MBM) and Coaching with Horses, published author, coach trainer, leader in the field of Equine Facilitated Learning, and life coach, Kathy brings over 15 years experience in the field of human development and personal growth.
Her compassionate, intuitive, and cutting edge approach in working with individuals provides her clients access to their deepest level of truth, power, and ability to live with purpose and passion. Kathy’s Mind Body Method integrates all of the information and knowledge within a persons experience bringing clarity and immediate results.
I can personally attest to the power of Kathy’s teachings. I was so blessed during the Level One coaching with Kathy. It wasn’t always easy - I wanted to release and move beyond those feelings, not focus on them. But the teachings she finally got through to me are some of the most valuable and powerful I’ve learned along my journey to the Other Side.
I’m going back to see Kathy in September to learn even more as a Level Two equine-facilitated coach. I can hardly wait for that learning and opening. In the meantime, I’m so looking forward to sharing my new coaching skills with my friends, clients and my own self.